My Spiritual Journey

The veil was thin during my birth and the passing of my mother, initiating my deep communion with the realm of spirit. I would receive information from spiritual guides and the ancestors of my own and of others’, without the skillset to be in conversation in a healthy way. With visits and prayer to my mother and ancestors at their Buddhist temple burial, I deepened my faith in my lineage of Shinto, Buddhism, Taoism, and The Creator. With childhood experiences clouded by the veils of grief, abuse, avoiding the foster care system, and many unanswered questions, I found myself in fights, making poor decisions, trying to fit in to spaces I did not belong, and sacrificing myself in the desperation to be saved.
While trying to start anew at 17, I was met with the realization that I only knew home in harmful situations. Experiencing stalkers, assault, friends being trafficked, loss through gun-violence, I was wired to believe that unsafe was safe, and safe was unsafe. In a constant battle between all the voices inside my head, not knowing who I was or who to listen to, desperately trying to prove myself, and having lost connection to my emotions— I did not understand that the answers I was seeking, would not be found through my mind. I felt like a prisoner of my own decisions and of the environments I felt like I could not escape. Even through the active efforts to want to heal, my fears, guilt, and shame reigned louder.

In the spaces where I would question that there must be more to this experience than pain, I discovered the many forms of divination. It was here that I began to study how to channel my psychic abilities. To make better sense of my spiritual experiences, I began my study of Astrology, Herbalism, Quantum Physics, Sound Healing, Flower Medicine, Traditional Chinese Medicine, Reiki, the Subtle Energy Body, The Akashic Records, Oracle, Tarot, Numerology, and various other esoteric healing modalities.
After years of study, I was faced with the reality that no matter how much studying I did, it meant nothing if all I knew was to speak on healing, rather than embody it. This is where I shifted my focus to the approach of Somatic Healing/ Embodiment and Belief Work. This transition allowed me to feel through my avoidance, shame, guilt, resentment, anger, regrets with the intention to confront my past with acceptance. This is where I learned that the spiritual experience is rooted in humanity— the spiritual experience is deeply human.

Where I once stood, only knowing how to create painful experiences, bloomed unimaginable possibilities for a life of miracles, joy, and freedom. My practices have been lived through, tested, learned, loved. My offerings commemorate the devotion, respect, and integrity required to grow, transform, heal, and be in alignment with our heart.